I'm not the best friend one could ask for, and I am aware of that. My friends could trust me with any secret knowing I would keep my mouth shut; and I did, most of the time.
But there were some really juicy facts I'd find out that were hard to keep to myself. Normally I'd tell one, maybe two people who would swear not to spread the word around; this plan worked for the most part, however being from a small town does not make that promising.
I had been caught in the act of this a few times, and gotten away with it through apologies and maybe a week of the silent treatment. This time would be a little different, I had gotten carried away with myself and spread a secret too terrible and personal to be forgiven. I know this because of the look Mary has on her face entering the lunch room of our high school.
If it were legal, you would think this would be my last day on this Earth. She walks toward me and I pretend not to know why she is stomping in my direction. As she approaches me, she begins screaming my name and asking why i could do such a thing. I simply rotate my body toward her and ask what she is talking about; not only am I a loud mouth, I am also a compulsive liar. Mary has known my longer than anyone so she knows not to buy the bologna I'm throwing at her.
She grabs me by the arm and drags me to the bathroom in such a way that I am afraid to pull back. I know I'm not about to get away with this one so I put on the puppy dog eyes to try and spare myself some screaming.
When Mary told me about her "situation" it was obvious to me that I was the only one who knew. Since I told the entire school I might as well come out and say it one more time; she is pregnant, and has yet to tell even her own parents. Now, before you begin judging my loyalty, you should know that she has already missed almost a month of school altogether and no longer shows up to cheer leading or drill practice. With that said, people were already questioning this outcome so I merely just shook my head yes and walked away.
If I were to tell Mary that, I would not get off so easily, so the best I can do is calm her down and tell her that I'm sorry and I regret overstepping my boundaries.
Once Mary has finished crying, she tells me that there is no longer trust in this friendship and exits the bathroom. I feel completely embarrassed and as some people would say " like a piece of garbage." How could I do that to somebody that I care about so much? Not even I can answer that question.
